I look at pictures of Madison now and watch videos not so much as memories but experiences. She completely changed me. She made me a better person. I have infinite patience and see the good in everyone. I don’t question anyone’s abilities despite their physical and mental limitations, and have a big heart for the families of children who show challenges physically and developmentally, no matter the severity. Madison was such a huge personality that people just gravitated toward her, from adults to little kids. They fed off of her energy and joy. You really couldn’t help it when you saw her strut around the corner on her way to whatever she was doing. She found fun in a simple trip to the bathroom and waved at everyone on the way there and back. Because of her, I’ve found comfort in conversation that means something. Superficial subjects don’t really interest me. Madison’s life meant appreciating everything and learning as much as you could about the people around you. She loved fiercely and you knew it. There was no pretense to her. When you were around her, you knew you were loved by this tiny person even if she didn’t know you well. You were the best person she’d ever met at that moment. She was your standing ovation, your biggest cheerleader, your everything. Being her mother meant being her favorite person at all times. Yes, there were moments she didn’t really like me, but they never lasted long. Her daddy was her best friend and I was her best mom. Megan was her best sister and her friends and teachers were some of her favorite people ever. You never questioned your worth around Madison and being able to be in her presence and be preferred gave me so much pride and made me feel so incredibly special. I miss that feeling. I know many do. It’s such a rare thing to have a daily reminder of the simple joys of life. A true embodiment of God’s precious love and grace. Her little body just couldn’t keep up with that level of happiness. I’m so grateful to have known her so intimately, to be a part of her. What a treasure.
